Sunday, August 10, 2014

Me.

Have you ever sat back and really thought about how different we all really are? Sure. We might share common interests with others. We may share same opinions and values, but no one is the same person. Close to 7 billion people on the Earth and not one soul is replicated. 

In my new job, I have been challenged. I've been challenged to learn a lot of new things in regard to the processes of the law. In that challenge, it is almost as though it has caused me to think deeper in many aspects of life. I have always been observant of others. However, lately I have been ever intrigued on the 'mind set' of other people. 

Type 'A', passive-aggressive, willing, pompous, naive, insecure, realistic, hypochondriac, self-centered, self-deprecating, aware, logical ... the list is literally endless. 

By watching how others operate and trying to consider their thought processes on things. Lately, I have  posed the question to myself of... what is the correct way to think? what is the right way to be? 

I admire those that are sure in their thinking; no matter what, they stick to what their opinion is and what they know to be true. I find it to display strength and security. Yet, I also find those who are willing to set aside their opinions to listen to others so endearing. People who live life in the moment and that are easy going, sooth me. Long story short, almost every different personality trait that I've come in contact with in my short life-time, I have learned to admire at least one thing. More times than none, I have thought how I would like to incorporate those attributes into my being. On the other hand, I have also learned many things that I don't respect and desire to eliminate from my life. 

Which is best? Is there one way to be? 

My answer is pretty simple. The way to be, is to be you. We have all been sent here for a purpose and I bear testimony that we have all had experiences in the pre-existence where we gained many of our innate characteristics. 

As for myself, I am obviously still learning a lot about who I am as an individual. But, I do know that I am generally quite permissive. However,  I am also a very competitive person in appropriate settings. I am aware of others and how they feel and really struggle with the idea of disappointing someone or letting others down. Laughing is one of my favorite things to do; I have always enjoyed good humor (but who doesn't). I am confident in myself, I truly believe that I can do most things that are set out in front of me. I am not an academic. But, I have learned to become more of an analytic thinker. I am not overly emotional. I would like to think that I am an optimistic person- at least I try to be. 

So far, that is what I know about myself. Is that the best way to be? I know that it is a good thing to be myself and to be the person that I am. However, I know that it is best to always strive to be better in every trait that we possess. We are not to always be dissatisfied with our selves and constantly feel that we are inadequate. And we are not to be content with no progression. That is not our divine purpose and that is not why we were given the opportunity to come to Earth. We are here to grow. 

I've been incredibly blessed in my life to be constantly surrounded by many wonderful examples to follow. I have always had people in my life, in every stage of my life thus far, that have inspired me to be better. I am lucky to have parents who consistently taught me in ways of righteousness. I was always around friends that rarely tried to sway me from my beliefs. Now, I am sealed to my love who always encourages me to be better in every way possible. I am so far from perfect and far from reaching my full potential. But, I have a desire to know who I am and what my purpose is. I love who I am, but even more, I love the person who I am capable of being.